verona again

I’ll feel happy about other things someday,

I know that. But, right now, I only feel happy

when you’re here. Not physically, necessarily,

you’ve never physically been here, but there

enough to respond when I say

“Hello?” and you say

“I missed you” and I say

“How’s your day?” and you say

“Better now” and 

(underneath it all) 

you can say “You make me calm” 

and I can say “You amaze me”

***

I don’t remember 

who this was for

This is yesterday 

***

I’ve felt so much joy I could explode and 

you’ll feel my love rain over. I feel happy

alone and when I speak to you, lost in me-

you never arrived cause you were here 

the whole damn time, I didn’t know before.

When I say “hello?”

You reply “I’m here”

and I say “Thank you”

and you say “of course”

and we live the rain together